Wednesday, March 4, 2009

My Comeback!


I arrived in California a year ago today.

I got here ready to eat up the cities, ready to start a film, to continue training and to do a triathlon. The plan was to work some and get set up here, and then to go back to Florida and do a talk, workout with my trainers, and to take a break and lay on the beach.

And then….I couldn’t walk down the street. Or to the next room for that matter. My back had been hurting somewhat before I left Fl, but this was different. I couldn’t eat because the surrounding muscles and nerves pulled my esophagus. I had to turn my head a certain way to speak. I lost 15 lbs. I couldn’t drive the car I had just bought because I couldn’t raise my arms. And as it went on and on, and on, it made my death experience feel like the common cold.

The MRI showed herniated discs, spinal stenosis etc. etc. Spine specialists…..recommendations for immediate surgery…..I thought I’d heal it myself. And it’s taken a lot longer than healing from dying did. (Or not? It is an injury that was there pre-death and exacerbated in the death event.)  

I’m almost fully recovered.

I didn’t talk to anyone. I didn’t say a proper goodbye to so many people that I care about because I thought I was coming back. And I am SO GRATEFUL to be able to reconnect with you all again!!!

In the midst of all of this I have managed to have some fabulous experiences (wouldn’t be me otherwise right?) I met some amazing people.

I got married!

I’m working with people who share my same theory and vision. I’m ready to start the film, with completely different content. I’m finishing off my book, and I am going to do my first talk in over a year, in San Francisco. Rather than the hard core training I was doing, my rad new husband surprised me with a pilates studio in our home, complete with a reformer machine.

Everything is different, including this site, and there’s much to come, but for the next few days-Hello Again!

8 comments:

Jill said...

You know, Erin, there are easier ways to lose 15 pounds! But I bet you looked hot in your wedding dress! Congratulations and my heart is filled with joy and love and a mix of other emotions (?), but oh, happy day! Be well, my love! (I might have entered this more than once???? Not sure with this new set up).

a said...

good to hear from you my sweet friend!! when should i come to sf to be a part of your talk?
angela

Anonymous said...

Enjoy the pilates, your hubby, your new state and new life. So glad you've transmuted and transformed your incident into a blessing. Good for you beautiful chameleon!!! Run free.

BILLO said...

Erin, it's SO good to know you're ok. I've missed you a lot. What a time you've had but I'm very happy that you are doing much, much better. You a very, very special.
Your GOLDEN BEING friend,
Paul

Don and Dorothy Ann Jackson said...

Erin this is Don from Sarasota. I have wondered what happened to you. Thanks for reconnecting. Call me at 9417802355 or email me at don@innovateliving.com

Erin said...

You sweet loves! I feel so gooey happy to see you on here again!

I've heard brides go through a lot to look good in their dresses...you mean that wasn't the way? Actually less than 100lbs was so very not hot, (but, you know, I managed-lol!) but I'm back baby. My back's back baby!

I am trying to get the SF talk in before I go to LA in April...I'll post it on the blog schmog asap. Ahhhh, to see your sweet face there!

This whole incident was so painful and it truly feels like it was the last "death/here integration" if you will. All the things that were hard about talks, wanting to do the documentary right, being back from the dead, etc. are gone. I'm so grateful you're all here with me. Love.

Anonymous said...

hi erin,
its erica again - i just sent you an email but forgot to mention that you can visit my website for updates http://ericareynolds.com

much love

Anonymous said...

Dear Erin,
We are so glad to hear from you.You made such an empression on my partner Ken and I when You spoke in Sarasota's Unity. We have not spoken directly, but we have continued to keep you in our thoughts,prayers,and conversations. Thank you for your update of this thing we call life.
Ruth Ann Smith